About the Practice

I didn't arrive at this work as someone who had it all figured out.

I arrived as someone who was tired. Depleted. Running on fumes and wondering why nothing felt quite right even when everything looked fine from the outside. I was told I should be happy. I had everything. So why did I feel this disconnect?  And the accompanying shame for not just being happy? 

It turns out that what you ignore and try to push down ALWAYS has a way of surfacing…

For me, this was in the form of an abdominal tumor. One that refused to stop growing until I admitted what I had been so desperately trying to ignore.

I was grateful for the many blessings in my life, and simultaneously I wasn’t “ok.”  I wasn’t happy. I was operating from an old belief system that was slowly killing me. The hardest part was that once I acknowledged this, once I validated what my heart and body had been shouting at me for years, I knew I needed to change it.

My few previous years of curiosity and spiritual learning had been an introduction. The tumor I discovered in 2021 was the accelerant. It was the path I never would have chosen, but it was one that I could not have lived without.

The night before I started my chemotherapy course, I sat on my bed and cried. I was scared. I asked for a message from spirit. I pulled an oracle card.  One that I will forever remember: “It’s happening for you, not to you.”  It was asking me to completely let go of my expectations, my need to control, and my incessant worrying.  It was an invitation to trust. I’m not sure there is any more difficult task in our world.

And the lessons and personal growth (no pun intended!) that I received in the next year was, in fact, one of the biggest gifts of my life. I’m not telling you this journey was easy or delightful. It was difficult in many different ways. There were countless occasions for me to sit on my bed and cry, from the physical symptoms I experienced to my feelings of loss for another year that I couldn’t “fully experience my life” as I wanted to. The interesting part is that during that year, I more fully experienced life and understood what I needed in that year than in any of my 37 prior years. 

Every 3 months I would return to the MRI machine, wondering what was happening inside my body and hoping to hear good news. Chemotherapy helped shrink my tumor notably for the first 3 months of treatment. Then somewhat for the next 3 months of treatment. When no observable result happened from months 6-9, my doctor suggested I stop.  

The tumor was supposed to remain as it was. I was “done” and had made it through the hard part. But instead, the next 3 month scan showed regrowth. My well-meaning doctor offered for me to go back on Chemo indefinitely. That was not a life that I wanted. 

For the next 3 months, I turned inward to focus on my own healing before considering more medication. I leaned into what my body and soul were communicating to me. I energetically worked with my tumor, instead of treating it as the enemy. I accepted the lessons and insights that it came to teach me. I finally, finally let go of the perfectionism, desire to control, and attachment to what I thought I was supposed to be for the first time in my life. And the results of my MRI showed that the tumor had shrunk more than during the first 3 months of active chemo treatment.

Spiritual healing supported me at exactly the right moment. And I have experienced joy, ease, abundance, and flow in my life because of this work. More than I ever could have imagined. 

That's why I do this work now.

Not because I read about it in a book. But because I lived it. I know what it feels like to be on the other side of that lesson, in tears you didn't expect, feeling lighter than you have in years.

I want that for you too.

Every person I work with reminds me why I made this choice. This work is a privilege, and I don't take it lightly.